Frustrated.

From the oh-so-happy feeling to downright-fugly.

If only:

* I hadn't received that comment/message.

* I didn't hope for it to come true (I'm still hoping btw)

* THEY would understand how important it is to me

then life would be okay. *sigh* Can't they understand how I'm willing to take a risk? Kahit ngayon lang.

Imbes tuloy na maging optimistic ako, nawalan na ako ng loob. What a way to dampen my mood, samahan pa ng 199.

Okay naman kasi kahit hindi matupad, kahit mauwi lang sa wala yung effort ko, at least I tried. URRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.